who am i?

hello, world!! in case you're wondering why all of a sudden i'm not using capitol letters this week, it's to honor the memory of another fallen tv land icon, gary coleman of different strokes fame, who died last week at the age of 42. i grew up watching that show, of course, then watching the problems, the breakdowns and ongoing legal problems of the former child star. what's sad is that he probably gets remembered more for the drama of his life then his career as an actor. sad but true. which got me to thinking about my own demise. what? like yall haven't thought about your own. how you are remembered is based on how you lived and i'd like to think that for all the dirt i've done as a young adult, i've almost paid back society with a lot of good i've done since the age of 25. i'm more than certain that it's an alomst as of now but check back with me in a few years. with that said, i know what needs to be done and lord willing, i will try to make up for all the other bad stuff i've done with good deeds throughout the rest of my life.
while this is all well and good, it has brought up a dilemma. how exactly do i want to be remembered? do i want to be remembered as the geek from grammar school i once was, as a teenage delinquent i grew to be, the 20 year old dreamer i was until 5 years ago or my current incarnation, a 35 year old man that has just realized one of his life long goals (journalism) and has prioritized his life's other goals and dreams with the thought that just maybe somebody could learn from my experience, my travels, etc? and even more important than that, what about the legacy of the man of which i still haven't became yet? how will he leave his mark on a world that is already mark-filled? only time will tell, but that's the good thing about time: as long as you have a little you can do a lot. we'll see world. we'll see.